eigentlich will ich nur weinen

i cannot believe you said that, i cannot believe you made me feel so bad about myself, i cannot believe that one sentence-
you are so hurtful. unknowingly. i cannot believe that you would doubt me in the one area that i was sure of myself. i cannot believe i just accepted it, and then went home and tormented myself for the entire night. i cannot believe i didnt confront you right then and there, make you take it back. i didnt want you to see how shaken i was. you are such a bastard. such an insensitive ASS. god. i am so angry at you and i just want to throw something at you and hurt you.